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You Don't Need a Man (or Woman) To Complete You

I do need a man for...other things.

GAY WEDDING!!!

In my wanderings through YouTube, I found this and it's pretty awesome.

An Awkward Question

Yet again I'm having trouble sleeping. Here is what's on my mind this time:

There is this guy I used to work with who we'll leave nameless here. He is a pretty awesome guy that I've known for a year or two. We usually had fun together on the job. We tapped into each other's goofiness, sexual innuendo passed between us constantly (more so than it did between me and almost anyone else...it's kinda my schtick), etc. Some people that worked with us thought he may be gay (someone actually asked him outright in front of several other coworkers, at which I was initially stunned, then walked away trying unsuccessfully not to laugh hysterically). For the most part, I didn't think about it because I didn't care for most of the time we worked together.

I have quite a bit of free time on my hands, more so than any person should. As a result of this, my mind tends to wander wildly. One of the things that I have pondered - given the apparent question as to this guy's sexuality combined with my nagging solitude - was this: had he actually been attracted to men in general, was he attracted to me and would a relationship between us work? As to the relationship question, probably not because this would mean he was in the closet. All of the anecdotal evidence points to relationships where one person is in and the other is out being very strained because of divergent interests. There are also some other reasons it may not have worked in the long-run, but we need not go there. Even given that, I have taken the position that if the opportunity arose, I'd just go for it. Better to try and fail than not try and wonder "what if" in situations like this.

This whole thing has nagged me sporadically over the past several months. I think were I to see him face to face again (which seems unlikely at this point and this doesn't really seem like an internet/texting question) I would be hard-pressed to resist asking a very awkward question: did we ever have a shot (and I'd have to emphasis an honest and confidential answer...I'm great with secrets)? If we did, then it's out there and at least we both are on the same page. If we didn't and it's all in my head (which seems BY FAR the more likely scenario), I'm 100% okay with that. No harm, no foul...at least on my part. Either way, I feel the need for an honest answer to put my mind at rest.

Men...why do they always do this to me? Bastards...

September Ratings (& Other Stuff)

I'm not really sure how it happened, but managed to have a record month of ratings for my blog political Commonwealth Commentary last month. The previous high was about 5400 in July. September, I managed to rack up almost 6200. I'm quite happy about that. Whether or not I can approach those numbers this month, I'm not so sure, but I'll give it a try  One thing that I haven't been doing so much of lately is original content. Pretty much all of what I've posted of late has been videos and news articles and not so much of my own stuff. In other words, I have not been putting the "commentary" in "Commonwealth Commentary." I need to change that. Since I have several free hours tomorrow before I have to be at work, I'll get started then. It's the end of an election cycle, so there should be tons of fodder.

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In other news, I'm supposed to be going to a mates wedding this coming weekend. The reason that I sound uncertain is that there are a bunch of obstacles in my way. First: travel arrangements. I have no car, so I can't just drive there myself (it's in Northern Virginia...or somewhere thereabouts). I friend in town is going so I hope I can hitch a ride with her, otherwise, I'm screwed. Second: work. I requested that weekend of but got scheduled the day before and the day after the wedding. Bovine excrement. I'm seriously pissed off about this because of the way requesting time off works at my job. This is primarily because it doesn't work. I don't want to delve into that too much because it will just get me pissed all over again and I'm trying to get to sleep soon.

If you remember my various posts about a person I called "N," he becomes relevant here again. It's his sister who is the bride at this wedding. Though I don't feel for him the way I once did (FYI we're not talking about love), something about the fact that he'll be there makes me a bit nervous. I'm really looking forward to going to the wedding other than that, I'm just dreading potential awkwardness.

One thing is for sure though. Assuming I actually make it to the wedding, I'll be looking good. This past Monday I picked up a green dress shirt and a silver tie that catches the light in a really nice way. I may or may not be wearing my waist-coat (the one I was wearing in the wedding photo I posted a week or two ago). Green and silver are my two favourite colours. I also have some super dressy shoes to wear.

I should probably learn how to tie that tie...

Weekend Update: Wild Wedding

Aww...

It's been a while since I've been to a wedding. The last one I went to was when my mom married my step-dad, 10 or so years ago. This wedding I went to yesterday was...interesting.

I went with my friend JP on the 3.5 hour drive from here to Chesterfield. I was not looking forward to the drive. The weather was being rather schizo Saturday. The first 30-60 minutes were okay. The rest of it, we were in and out of rain. We went through at least for bits of rain. The second to last storm was also foggy (somehow), which made it even worse. The last storm was the worst. It was an actual storm; thunder, lightning, the whole schtick. Visibility was practically none existent. After we passed through that, I text Rachel (the bride) that this storm may be on the way. I found out a bit later that this friendly warning only served to stress her out even more when she was already on pins and needles. Oops...

We had left around 1 and got there around 5. The last 40 miles took us an hour because of that last storm. The actual ceremony was supposed to start around 5:30. JP and I were taking some photos of the venue and such when I noticed that the sky was starting to look rather ominous. over the next 30 or so minutes, it just started to look worse and worse. I was getting worried that there would be a huge hiccup in this wedding ceremony, which was being held outside. Eventually they herded us into our seats and the ceremony began. Rachel was wearing an absolutely beautiful dress and she looked gorgeous in it. While the ceremony was going on, the wind was picking up. It got so strong that a tree branch a few yards off snapped off and fell, as did a hanging plant on the gazebo a few feet away from the bride and groom, which just made everyone laugh. I could only hear about half of what the priest (or whatever clergy person she was, I don't know her title) was saying despite the fact that she was mic'ed. Somehow, by the grace of God, they got through the ceremony before the storm. A mere few minutes later, it started pouring. Luckily, everyone was inside the tent (where the reception was held) or inside the building. 

JP and I ended up leaving around 8 or 9 on the 3.5 hour long drive home, which went far more smoothly.

Also, Virginia Tech curb-stomped some school in football. Seriously, I have no idea where this school is (Austin Peay???).

Damn, we're fine!!!

Brothers or Boyfriends

Film Shorts: "Curious Thing" Trilogy

The first of these videos I had posted earlier, but thought it was worth re-posting them all together, that and I just found out that it was actually a trilogy.

Relationship Hell

A bunch of people I work with are having some relationship issues.

One guy was just broken up with by his girlfriend of five years. She said she felt she was holding him back (which sounds fishy to me). They're somewhat in limbo, but I think it may be really over given what he's told me.

Another guy, in a long distance relationship, is apparently bad at comforting his girlfriend who is complaining about her job. They may or may not have solved this issue, but now there is apparently another guy that likes her (even invited her to a wedding, sketchy) who may be trying to move in on his "territory."

A girl who has been with her boyfriend for a number of years was more or less left to fend for herself a week before having surgery on her foot while also caring for their two dogs. He went to the other side of the country at the beginning of Summer. She is, understandably, pissed. His attempts at making up for it have fallen very short. They have not spoken much in the ensuing months. They're still together...at least for now. By the time he comes back, she will be going to grad school up North.

Another guy is crushing hardcore on a girl (we all work together), but she isn't having it. Smart decision on her part. I've mentioned this guy before and he is (still) very immature. From what I can see, they would be a terrible match.

What about me you might be asking? Well, I'm still trying to read the situation I mentioned in a recent post. I'm probably not going to be able to go to the birthday thing, but that's because of work. Last Sunday, I tried to get him out to hang with some mutual friends after he was done working for the day. It was a no-go. He was sort of (physically) touchy with me this week. I'm getting mixed signals so I still have no clue what is going on here and thinking about it is rather frustrating.

So much drama. It's simultaneously interesting, hilarious, and fucking with my head.